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makeup as carefully as I should. I can neither say "so what" to the Anima (as my ex-wife thought I should do) nor fully and willingly ac- cept her, whole or part time, into full co-existence with the normal, masculine me.

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And yet . Is this masculine me really so very masculine? My own hair is now a good three inches longer than it was once and it is still growing. I am taking better care of both my wardrobes than I ever did of my old one. Now that I am installed in a "batchelor" apartment I am learning to cook, wash and housekeep like any woman. Finally, my friends in the Beaumont Society say that they think that my Persona changes as I change my clothes and that they then have no difficulty in thinking of me as a woman.

In her book, Esther Harding talked of the need for personal integra- tion, Man with his Anima and Woman with her Animus. Marital re- lationships in which either (or both) partner was merely reflecting the subconscious counterpart of the other were doomed to instability, for they prevented the intra-person integration that all psychologists from Freud onwards have deemed necessary. Jung himself went still further and claimed that Society (in the book, "Modern Man in Search of a Soul") itself was headed for disaster due to an unbridled masculinity and that unless men discovered their personal and collective Animas, there was no hope.

Well, Virginia, this began as a letter of thanks to you for saying so clearly what I am still fumbling towards, but it seems to have gone on to become a possible piece for Transvestia. Do print it if you wish. My ramblings might be of help to others similarly trying to find themselves.

NO SIR-THE ONLY COLOR SETS WE HAVE IN OUR TV DEPARTMENT ARE MATCHED PANTIES

AND BRAS.

THE SHOPPE

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